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as i throw another rock in your ocean, as i sit here as i revere as i forget to fear, there is change in the thunder and blood in the water and one by one little bricks fall gracefully from their big tall walls.
Without their height walls are defenseless.

today the eyes of my heart opened to a sweet realisation. it was similar to being asleep and waking up to the sun screaming into your window. It takes a second or two for your eyes to adjust to the brilliance and really understand this new piece of truth.
it occured to me by the grace of God that in regard to Satan's attacks, we can respond with rejoice in the plans our savior has for us. We can rejoice that his plans are SO important, so extraordinary that they provoke Satan into trying absolutely anything he can to tear them down or hold them back.
big stuff.

lately ive been struggling to balance holding dear the hope of the future but not lusting after it, not longing for or chasing someday. Because someday's time will come and this day, this time here, has done nothing to deserve neglect.

i am learning that no one no thing no place no taste no sound no friend no event can fulfill the way the peace of a savior can. Nothing else is worth it, truly nothing else is worth such energy and i have been recklessly chasing any sweet rebellion that catches my eye. And it is exhausting to an unearthly extent to chase all of this wind  and i want to be done.
"Entering into his fullness is not something you figure out or achieve . it's not a matter of being circumcised or keeping a long list of laws. No, you're already in. not through some secretive initiation rite, but rather through what Christ has already gone through for you, destroying the power of sin"colossians 2:11-14