Osh Kosh

That was my life for so long, and now it isn't.
I don't think I'll ever get used to this.


<3

Batman

Love is dumb. Love is beautiful. Love has broken my heart and destroyed me. But I always manage to keep believing in it.
I've said I love you to guys that I now wish I had never met. I didn't mean it. I didn't mean it in May, or June, or July, or October. I've changed. I get it now. Not fully, because no one can. But I understand it more now. Because I've experienced it. I mean it this time. It's a feeling, and an action. Love is when you get butterflies from holding hands even after months have passed. It's when one hug can change everything. It's when they can make you smile even on a Tuesday. Love is a giant mosh pit of arguements, broken hearts, smiles, Thursdays, anniversaries, dandelions, forgiveness, memories, and belief. You have to believe it in. It's not easy. It sucks and it will make you cry and turn you bitter and your emotions will get tired. But it's worth it. All of those temporary problems are worth that moment of laying in a field of sunflowers with everything you've ever wanted. I mean it this time. Belief.

Stay Gold

Don't wait for someone to tell you it's too late.
Cause these are the best days.
There's always something tomorrow.
So I say, let's make the best of tonight.
Here comes the rest of our lives.

We only grow up once.

Liberty loss and coffee cups.

My friend Kendal is a musician. He's on iTunes. "Pacific Resonance". Check it.
I'm listening to one of his songs right now, actually, and there's one line that stands out to me.
"Isn't it strange to think everything we do is useless?"
When I first heard it, I thought: "Dude, Kendal. Depressing, much?" But I've realized that he's exactly right. Nothing we do is going to change anything. Really.
I mean, we all want to think that it will, but really. Really. Nothing we do can change the weather, or the fact that polar bears will someday be extinct. (I know, I know, it's sad). Nothing we do is going to explain, truly explain, why Mona Lisa smiles. Isn't it strange to think everything we do is useless? It is. But I feel it's also a relief. It's not up to us. Nothing's up to us. If you know me at all, you know I know that it's up to God. Nothing He does is useless. Everything he does is everything. And we aren't Him.
It's like when someone you know has a test that they didn't study for. Dude, that sucks but it's not my test and I'm not you, so I'm not going to worry about it. Or even care. It's in God's hands. Everything is taken care of. The song's titled "Never Ending Search" Never ending search for the truth. The truth is, everything we do is useless.
But that's alright. :)